Monday, July 29, 2013
hope everyone is enjoying their summer,
until next time,, peace and luv to all
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Today I would like to talk about how some kids only get the honor of having one mom, whereas I had the honor of having many mom's.
I had my mom, my Auntie Carylee, my Gramma, my Auntie Nano (whom I was named after), my Aunt Ginny, my Aunt Linda, my Aunt Judy, Charmaine, Vi, Alice, Melanie, Anita and probably some I am forgetting about somehow since I grew up in a time when everyone's mom could act as a mom in your mom's absence.
When I look back at all these strong women, it is no wonder I turned out to be a strong, independent woman. This is not to say that they never made mistakes - we are all human and learning is a never ending process - or that I never made mistakes. Lord knows I have made my fair share.
The point is I would not be the me that I am today without each and every one of these ladies having some lasting impact on me.
My mom taught me so much, the good, the bad and the ugly. Today is not a day to remember the bad or ugly so the good is that she taught me that irresponsibility is not always a bad thing. She taught me that you need to live each day to its fullest and spread love and joy wherever you go. She taught me that it is ok to embrace getting older and to have fun with it.
My Auntie Carylee taught me that crushes are ok and a great part of life. She took me to my first real concert for my 13th birthday. She instilled in me that you need to embrace yourself and be confident no matter what your size - that is how God made you and therefore you are perfect.
My Gramma taught me about responsibility. To save for a rainy day. To prepare for coming events. To hoard toilet paper and paper towels (that is a story for another day). She also taught me how to be a lady. She made sure I know how to act in any situation. She gave me ettiquette lessons in the summers when I wanted to be off playing. She showed me that patience pays out in the end.
My Auntie Nano gave me my love of traveling and story telling. I could (and did) listen to her tell me stories of her travels for hours and hours. She also taught me that it is ok to look at anything and make up a story about it -- not like rumors or hurtful things, but "hey, see that ship heading out to sea? Where do you think it is going and why?" Rainy days at her house were my favorite thing on earth because it meant sitting in the window watching the ships in the sound and telling stories of where they were going or coming from, or looking at all her post cards, or her trinkets and hearing the stories behind them.
My Aunt Ginny taught me to love the finer things in life. She was and still is very into the arts. She also taught me that while it is great to live the finer things in life it is also great to walk away from it all from time to time and just be with nature.
My Aunt Linda taught me to have comapssion for all. To always smile and be there for others.
My Aunt Judy taught me that redheads have the most fun of all -- and it is ok if you were born with a redheaded soul, but dark hair because there is hair dye!!
Charmaine taught me that every child deserves a home filled with love.
Vi taught me to never face the day without a little makeup on - it just makes you feel better if you get up, get dressed and put your face on.
Alice taught me that sometimes marriage is rough, but you stick with it, and work it out. It was not meant to be something that you just do once - you have to work at a marriage and fall in love over and over with the same person.
Melanie taught me to be consistent. To be faithful. To love unconditionally. She took me in when I really didn't have anywhere else to go as a teen. She showed me what consistancy is and feels like. She also reminded me (a lot) about how i couldn't hide things from her because she had already been there and done that and probably wrote the book about it I was learning from!! She also taught me that it is ok to be honest with your parents as they will love you no matter what.
Anita taught me that it is ok to forgive people for things you never thought were forgivable. She also taught me to actually talk to my dad about stuff from the past so that we could have a relationship that wasn't full of pain.
To all these women I say thank you - you made me into a very strong, independent woman who managed to raise an amazing son. He may not be perfect (again who is) but I know I raised him right and in the end he will pass that on to his children should he choose to have them in the future.
Until next time,
Peace and luv to all
Sunday, February 17, 2013
So now we are off to the ocean. We get there and Jaymee is a little disappointed because they are loading up the horses for the night.
(That will be a whole different adventure)
so since we are at Ocean Shores it means we can drive on the beach so off we go, laughing all the way. What amazing freedom, while at the same time knowing you are really just this oh so small part of the universe. And we finally find a good spot and just sit and watch the ocean and the sun going in and out of the clouds on it's way to an amazing sunset.
Well we realize that the ocean is sneaking up on us and we need to back up - but Jaymee is up for just a little more driving fun first.
And off we go making almost donuts on the beach, laughing as the traction contol clicks on and off as we hit some bumpy softer areas. And BOOM!! All of a sudden we realize we aren't moving anymore. So, throw it in reverse and just back out of the soft sand - no big deal right?? Yeah big deal. WE ARE SOOO STUCK!!! So Jaymee is trying to kinda dig out the tires and I am out of the car cuz I figure just that much less weight will help. And still stuck. Now there are two couples coming to help us out - one in their twenties, one is probably their late 60's early 70's. So no big deal, even though with all my arthritis I cannot help, there are four people, surely we can get the car back to packed sand right??
Yeah no we are really stuck – so I do my best damsel in distress thing to this big truck driving down the beach (Princesses are really good at this one). They are too nice looking men from Alaska and not only do the have a kick a$$ truck, they have a two rope (and their mom too) it took some time but finally we were free!!!
So Sunset at the ocean, a huge adventure, and tons of laughter all the way home!!! I love adventures!!!!
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
I don’t think I actually did anything new this last year. That is kind of a sad reality for me, since I am supposed to be living life to the fullest and I honestly feel like I failed on that aspect this last year.
2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I generally don’t tend to make resolutions, but no I did not follow through with my goals for last year. for 2013 I have decided to work hard on no more consuming alcohol, eating healthy and exercising more.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Victoria had her little Fridurik and Maggie’s son had precious little Celyne also I have several friends expecting in 2013 – Desiree is having twin girls any day now, Bill and Trish are having William Jr around Valentines day (I still say on the 11th so we can share a birthday), Mike and Krista are expecting a little boy this year
4. Did anyone close to you die?
I made it through the year with no significantly impacting deaths
5. What countries did you visit?
ummm none unless you count the countless places in the books I read
6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
yeah again this year it will have to be a full time permanent job or steady work
7. What date from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Probably July 1 because that is when I moved back into my own apartment after such a long time living with others
9. What was your biggest failure?
thinking my drinking was under control when in reality it was controlling me
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nothing major – just my regular day to day pain and anxiety
11. What was the best thing you bought?
havent really bought anything major in a long time – but I am the queen of freebies – my apartment is furnished with freebies including my tv with dvd player
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Jaymee – she constantly surprises me with the things she is finding out about herself and acting on
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
do politicians count???
14. Where did most of your money go?
general survival – rent and electric bills but my money I should have been saving went to alcohol
15. What did you get really excited about?
going to see tim mcgraw at the puyallup fair in september
16. What song will always remind you of 2012?
im sexy and I know it
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
ii. thinner or fatter?
gotta say fatter – hard to say without a scale though
iii. Richer or poorer?
about the same I think
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
actually living life instead of :”pinning” it
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
wasting time on the computer
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
christmas was a quiet affair with just my son and myself
21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?
new years eve was friends and family hanging out drinking with me once again blacking out and having to ask about my night – that was the final straw on the drinking thing
22. Did you fall in love in 2012?
nope not really
23. How many one-night stands?
24. What was your favorite TV program?
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
still don’t believe in hating others
26. What was the best book you read?
I read so much…….. and they are all the best when I am lost in them
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
spotify – it is amazing to listen to what I want when I want
28. What did you want and get?
29. What did you want and not get?
30. What was your favorite film that you saw for the first time this year?
breaking dawn part 2
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 44 and I don’t really remember what I did for my birthday
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
a job – yes it is a continual pattern with me
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
I think I grew up a lot with my fashion – a lot more ruffles and color than ever before
34. What kept you sane?
my friends and family
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
this year would probably have to be shemar moore
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
I think legalizing “gay” marriage – I have so many friends that have much healthier and stable relationships then I have ever had and they deserve all the rights that come along with committed relationships.
37. Who did you miss?
I missed my mom – and my dad – and melanie and mac – still miss talking all night with kyle at williams ave about life in general
38. Who was the best new person you met?
probably jesse’s friend alex – he is a good kid with a lot of potential
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
life lesson – when you admit to yourself that you have lost jobs due to your drinking (or after effects of drinking) your life can only change for the better
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use?
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Well here it is 2013. That means that we all survived not only 12-12-12 but the end of the world on 12-21-12 according to the Mayan calendar. This year is going to be an amazing year for me, I am just sure of it. This year I will be working on not drinking alcohol anymore, I tend to not be able to control it therefore it is something I need to give up. I am going to be working hard on eating healthier, but also working on not beating myself down mentally if I am not perfect at eating healthier. I am going to try to blog once a week. I am going to work on getting back into the habit of walking daily.
This year you will get to hear about my family, friends, ancestors, crafts, cooking and whatever else I feel like sharing I hope to keep you all entertained in the coming year.
As always, peace and luv to all,