Didja Miss Me??

Ok, so when I am struggling in life, I tend to let my blog slide.  I have been looking for solid permanent work for a while now and hopefully I am almost there.  I am totally looking forward to 2013 - especially since the world didn't end on December 21st and all.  So, with all that said, I am working on a plan for blogging for 2013 and I hope to be able to keep it up ALL year long.  Sometimes I just end up taking on too much and then everything suffers.  I would love to blog every day, I would love to do project 365, I would love to do project life for a full year, I would love to do a cooking blog where I actually make all my pinterest recipes.  But for now I will plan on one blog a week, with an eclectic variety of things that make up my life.

Hope you will all stick it out with me,
As always, peace and luv to all,

Laura

PS Merry (late) Christmas

Food with a Face

Ok, maybe I am weird but I don’t think that food with a face is cute – not even for children – I think it is creepy to try to eat anything that looks back at you.  I don’t care that it is totally fake looking – I don’t want my food looking back at me.  So here are a bunch of examples from pinterest – sorry I didn’t save the links but will find them for anyone who wants them. **warning graphic heavy**

See – creepy!!  And I can honestly say that even as a child I didn’t like food with faces.  I didn’t like it when we would go to IHOP and they would bring me the face pancake thing, I didn’t like it when I was 5 and got a panda bear cake – my first drama queen birthday happened over that cake because I didn’t want my mom to cut it let alone people to eat it!!  My son grew up without food with faces and I don’t think it harmed him in any way, of course I haven’t asked him so I could be wrong LOL.  Anyway, just thought I would share this with the world

until next time,

peace and luv to all

laura

Some days are better than others........

Ok if you have been reading my blog for a while now you know I suffer from depression and it is something I have battled since I was a teen.  I take my meds daily and they usually help, but I guess I don't deal well with "rejection" and losing my job two weeks ago was a huge rejection in my mind.  On top of the depression I tend to get agoraphobic.  I don't want to leave my house for many real and/or imagined reasons and can talk myself into staying in very easily, talking myself into leaving the house, however, not so easy.  It is days like this that I really need the confidence boosters that I make myself and plan to hang up all around my apartment eventually.  Today is a not so good day.  I honestly just want to curl up in my bed - let the physical pain take over - and just stay there.  But, I have not done that - I have made myself be up and doing something all day.  I still have not left my apartment today, but the day is not over yet and even if it does get to the end of the day, tomorrow is another day.

This is what I made for myself today.  It is Xena and She-Ra - these are both nicknames my family has called me through the years.  My little bit of journaling on it says "With nicknames like these you can conquer the world if you choose to".  I love that my family sees me as this warrior.  I just have to find her in me again is all.  I know she is there somewhere.
Anyway I just wanted to share this little tidbit about me,
Until next time,
Peace and luv to all
Laura

What the what the?????

So yeah during one of my “breaks” from job hunting and interviewing I was trolling the net and came across a couple of things that I feel need shared with the world. 

First the “Face-kini”.  I know, y’all are now all saying what the what the??  The term is linked to an article about it on Time.com and here is a photo so you will know what it is I'm talking about.

Now I don’t know how you feel about this but I for one would probably run into shark infested waters to avoid this person.  For me the creep factor is right off the charts.  So now onto my next discovery…

These Honest Trailers are so funny!!!!!   I have to admit I killed about an hour watching them for all different movies.  These guys are amazing and I am now their newest fan!

I hope you all are doing well and that you enjoyed today’s what the what the? blog

until next time,

peace and luv to all

Laura

job hunting sucks!!

i started working at 10 - i was the neighborhood babysitter as well as my best friend and i were total dumpster divers and had "yard sales" every weekend.  by the time i was 13 i made at least three times what my mom got monthly from the state.  i kept it hidden in the wall of my room in a bag tied to a string tied to my light switch holder thing in the wall.  this money was to pay things like the electric bill when they would come to shut it off or the rent when it accidentally didnt get paid.  i worked babysitting all the way through high school as well as a few office jobs here and there.  my mom always told me that as long as you have office skills you will always have a job.  boy was she wrong.  after high school i worked at a thrift store, babysitting then as a live in helper for a foster home that had several high risk special needs kids.  i did that until i got pregnant with my son and got put on bedrest.  after i had my son i didnt live in but still helped out a lot because i could bring him with me.  when my son was 7 i went to office work and worked solidly until i lost my job in aug of 2007.  yes i have totally expended all my unemployment, but i have been working this past year and now i had to apply for unemployment again - i dont honestly think they are going to approve it, but it is worth a try.  in the meantime, i need a job.  i am actually thinking of looking into retail because at least it would be a job and if i disclose my arthritis they are supposed to make provisions for me since it is a disability.  the biggest thing is i cannot stand for very long without my back seizing up.  that my dear fans is not fun at all.  but the one thing i have figured out during this week of job searching again is that my faith in God is a lot stronger than i thought it was because i am working hard on not stressing, knowing that He has a greater plan for me than i am aware of and it will work out because it has to.  all that being said, if you could keep me in your thoughts and prayers to whomever it is you choose to have that relationship with it would be greatly appreciated.

until next time,

peace and luv to all

laura

Well sometimes life throws a curveball at you

so as of yesterday, i dont have a job.  this sucks big time.  I have been applying like mad and contacting temp agencies and I know it has only been 2 days but I really need another job here!!  But this is just a curveball.  I will get through it.  and i will come out on top i am sure.  on the plus side the weather this week is fantastic and i plan on job hunting while enjoying some of this unexpected summer vacation i have.  and I have been playing in my art journal a lot the past few days.  mostly cutting and pasting from magazines but the reason i love art journals is that there are no rules - just do what you need to do.

this page started with the greenish lips - i mean who doesnt want their lips this shade??  then i added a few quotes out of a fashion magazine and there you have it - i also wrote "i am who i am" "no excuses" "no regrets".  

these two go together - they are my version of the real me.  some weirdness, some girlishness, some kissing and a rock star....... yeah that about sums it up LOL

I hope you have enjoyed your little peek into my journal.

until next time,

peace and luv to all

laura

hey y'all it's been a while

Sorry I have been MIA the last month.  What with work, the new apartment, friends and summer I just have not been in the mood to blog about much of anything.  Things in life are good - I am very settled in my apartment now - still things I need to buy one by one, but eventually this is gonna be the most awesome studio apartment EVER!!  Summer is officially here in Seattle this weekend.  Temps in the high 80's to mid 90's - too hot for me.  I am so thankful that we only get a few of these type of days a year.  This week has also been the big Seafair week - it includes fleet week with a few navy and coast guard ships down in Elliot Bay in downtown seattle that you can stand in line and tour if you wish, hydro racing, blue angels, air show........ but me, I am staying in my apartment where it stays relatively livable if i open everything up early and shut it all up by around 10.  I went after work Wednesday and took some photos of a couple of the ships down on the waterfront.  I am finding out that I dont mind being alone.  I really was worried when I moved into my apartment because it is the first time I have really lived by myself, but I love it.  Some nights I dont even turn on music or anything - I just enjoy the silence and time to contemplate life in general.  This month I am going to be working on family tree stuff, so expect to hear about that from time to time.  I am also trying to organize all my family tree stuff in Evernote.  I just got onto this bandwagon last night, but I can see the benefits of it and how it can help me get everything in one place.  i like that i can access all my info from anywhere - even my phone, which means that when I am on the bus and have a total AHA moment I can take note of it and access it later from my laptop.
I am going to try to be much better about posting in here about my very exciting life LOL so until next time,
peace and luv to all
laura